I had said out loud to friends "I will not have a C-section" 50x. Why? Because when you have PCOS you are more likely to have a c-section. Because I believe in the power of words. Because I wanted to stay positive. Because I was in denial that it could happen to me. Because I was afraid.
When we were in the surgery room and Neil had brought her over to me, I forced tears. That's what good moms do right? Cry at the sight of their first born?
As Neil changed into the gown, they rolled me down the hallway into the operating room. My whole body shook uncontrollably. I couldn't wrap my mind around what was happening. *I must confess at this point I was also thinking a lot about Grey's anatomy and all the things that could go wrong. If you are heading in for surgery or birth, I don't suggest binge watching it on Netflix for the month leading up to your big day*
This weekend I had the privilege of doing my first ever House Concert! It was an absolute blast. I am so thankful to those who came to share the night with me, my hosts who found out last minute they were hosting (my original host got very sick and had to cancel. SO SAD), and of … Continue reading House Concerts & Worship Leading
It's almost VALENTINE'S DAY!! Which to some of you is very exciting and for some of you, this is awful news. It's one of those holidays where the pressure is "on" to have the perfect date night combined with the perfect gift, the perfect mood and the perfect person to share it with. But let's just remember... … Continue reading Valentine’s Day Expectations
It sounds kind of funny to say my 8 (almost 9) month old has been teaching me things. Shouldn't it be the other way around? Sure I'm trying to teach her what "no" means (figure it out Hunny, chords are not for chewing!), how to stack things, how to eat from a spoon and how … Continue reading Mom Life: What my 8-month-old is teaching me